just a thought

I just thought, would I be wrong to look out for myself before anyone else? Is selfish in itself justified? Or is it more important to look out for one another as a collective to succeed? Pairs, couples, groups, whatever it may be...

two things i realized today.

[1] accept players(people) as they are. Players will act as they act and nothing else. for expecting otherwise would be costly. which would eventually lead to a lot of miss-reads. [2] consistency is the key to long term success. making the best decision is one thing and implying it accordingly Every Time is another.

you could just be a some mediocre player, content on breaking even at the end of the day. or even a player making great plays and more bad ones. but the question begs, do you not want to improve? don't you want to show the money you've won? Don't you wanna become a -Winner?!-

Great plays are illusions and are only held highly because of your perception. Now Great Players are Real. . they win Money that keeps points in this game. now, the Most Points, Win NOT the most Great plays. Consistency, makes Players Great.They are the winners of this game. they make the most valuable play cutting their losses or geting all their chips in at the Right Moment, Every Time.

I can be that Great Player. Focus on Winning.

i finally learned how to understand hand statistics online!

this long term game is about making correct decisons. the one who makes the most, wins in the long run.

if i were to write an entry about tonight, it would be another mistake and another loss. i didnt stick with my read again and i acted on impulse. i need to make correct decisions and implement them accordingly.. now

watch out now..

i noticed a change in my game because im overplaying too many hands. for example, i got carried away when i played 7d8d in the button with an allin for 255 on the flop with only 1100 behind and a call in front. the flop 3-6-7 rainbow. turn come Q and i already figured he had overs. he checks the queen, i bet half my stack and raises after. most definitely, an overplay. since, i made a read on his overs, i shouldve had confidence in that read enough to check and not bet, knowing i was getting a free card.

a old memory seems to stick out in my head where i seemed to play better. i had more confidence with less fears and worries.

be confident in reads, but dont simply play over anxious. its a long game, a very long one and be ready to grind it out.. to set ppl up.

Freeroll at 2am

Ad10d: in late position i popped its 4x. Blinds call and flop come 6d 8d 9c. Pot size bet from SB and i call. Turn, SB pushes and i call. SB flips over Ac8s.

on the flop that pot sized bet was giving me 2to1 for my approximate 1.25to1 if i put him on a middle pair with no ace to see the river. but then he bet the turn so AT BEST you have 16 outs if he hadn't made his straight already. at worst, you were a little under a 4to1 dog. ummm so putting all your chips on the turn was definitely a bad play. the play shouldve been call to see the turn and fold if you miss.

afterthought: calling on the draw doesnt mean you have to commit to it. fold if you miss when all you're chips are at risk.

Cold deck and impatient

for an hour and a half i was catching ass cards. K4 , Q3 , J2, 42, and more bs. i get this one situation where im gutted nd n early position after the flop and a guy bets late. i think if i catch my seven hes fuckd. so i call a pot sized bet. the board pair 8s and it goes check check. then the seven hits. i lead out with $30 and only get a call with a higher straight. i may have had to just be patient because i called with a low end straight draw with no pot odds to call. bad play already. then what ended my session was a limp with 44 on the button and the flop 10 5 5. first dood gives a funny check and i still move in, only to find out he has the 5.

my afterthought is: be more self perceptive. know when you feel impatient and calm down. wait for enough chips to make plays. dont try with a shortstack, cuz its hard to get people to lay down a hand with only $40 behind. the time will come when you have enough chips to play. until then, sit back nd chill.

LC 1-1-2

6c7c: under the gun, i open for 8 with $70 behind and get two customers. one from late position and from one of the blinds. flop comes 8 5 3 with one club. the play goes check check then a bet of 8. what was going through my head was this guy bet he open ended straight draw last time and i have an open ended straight draw now. so i raised for more than 3/4 my stack and get reraised for the rest. i tried to steal the pot and it failed and he then flipped over 9c8c. i couldve gained the same information by raising 2.5x or 3x his bet. i also could have called to see the turn and seen the action from there. $8-$35 was more than enough odds to call to see the turn and fold if i miss.

$20 buyin winner take all and 1-1-2 at LC

ight forget the bull shit. im flipping this blog into my poker diary so anyone who plays can follow, i guess.


there were two hands that stick out the most in the $20 buy in game. the first was QQ dealer position and Ah9c also in the same spot.

QQ's: Blinds were at 100/200, me at 4.5k and to the right was the chip leader with 12k give or take a thousand. he pops it to 800 and at this point i put him on a range of hands from A10-AQ to a small pair. i figure he'd call any raise but would probably fold on the flop if he misses. i needed to go for the win so i had to double up. i pushed knowing he'd call. whether or not he hit, i had to get all my money in preflop in order to win. he ended up having AK. others may argue that if i knew he'd call any raise, i should raise and shorten the range of hands then decide whether to move in on the flop. putting your money in post flop, without putting all your chips at risk pre-flop.

Ah9c: Blinds 250/500. 7.2k was my chip count. i was in the dealer position and raise 3x. BB calls and flop comes 5h7h8h. prior to this hand there has been alot of preflop raising, then folding and checking. BB checks to me and i push. he flips over Jh10h. bad move, at the same time, a good one. again, this was a winner take all game and i needed to win. so that means more gamble. as i analyzed the hand, i couldve checked and seen a free card. but even then, the 4th heart couldve been the action killer. so i had to get my money in, knowing he'd call with an opportunity to make the nuts. win or lose, 2nd wasnt taking home shit, anyways.

getting your money in, knowing he'd call being ahead or behind. only when going for the win is necessary.

soo as the night goes on i decide to head to Lucky Chances and play a little more. the way this hand was played isnt important but my attitude towards it is. Dealer position with QsJs. raise of 8 from the gun and 4 callers including me. flop come J-10-4 rainbow. check-check-check then to my right a bet of $10. i thought to myself if i gay raised, he's calling, if i trippled it, i have $6 dollars behind and if i call, im making a bad play. so i push and say "26 more" and he responds "confident over there". then i say "i'll show you confidence" and his dumb ass buddy to his right, that isnt even involved in the hand, says "hes a poker player tho". so the guy ends up calling with 2-4. river 4, giving him trips. now, the important part. i get frustrated and a lil hurt that i just dropped $50 in one hand and got hit with a bad beat. i wanted a call and got one. my attitude need not be down and out but up and going. if a player doesnt want a call in that spot, then how will he ever make money? i was a little over a 4-to-1 favorite on the flop to win the pot when the guy was only getting 3to1 for his money. so he made the bad play and not you. whether i win or lose, i have to remain indifferent because the next hand is being dealt and i need to focus on this hand, not the previous.

to add to this, min raising may have been the best play. with 3 players to act behind me, i may have been up against a slow roller. checking two pair or maybe even trips. a min raise also would have let me know where i was at if he just called or even raised.

culinary school?

wow, an option to go culinary school... i do have the passion but not the money. $75,000!. i just imagined one of those mastercard commercials. "chef apron, $80. chef hat, $25 ginsu knife, $200. love for cooking.... $75,000." hahaha. yet, it seems so fitting. idk.. im just riding the ride, trying to end up helping the world. so we'll see.

goodbye, perseus.

im taking an extended goodbye to Perseus by moving rrrreeeeeaaaallllyyyyy slow. we were supposed to leave at 10 this morning but i dont even have my clothes ready to go and most of my boxes arent loaded into the ride. ahhhh! i even watched darryl put water into the filter and while placing it back in the fridge, he spilled EVERYTHING. hahaha!!! OoOOo bartender came on and saturday by luda delaying my movage even further.... but anyways good times here. ALL good times. even the ones that others may say otherwise. yet without them, it wouldve never made us this strong. soo GOOD TIMES BABY! 24/7. peace perseus!

mMMm mMmMm...

i dont really understand how something good can end suddenly and stay stuck in my brain that i only use 5 % of . .. ? i mean, it was quick, so i should be over it just as fast. right? i dwell on it too much. sometimes, i feel its a bad thing. only because it inhibits me from getting out there and seeing what else is good. life is abundant in things all positive. so why stay stuck on something thats gone anyway? its not like it bothers me, i just miss it. thats all. And other times, i feel its good thing. i dont mind thinking about the fun moments. it helps me appreciate anything good that's in or comes in my life. Because in any instant, it can go *poof*. other than that, the thought alone of the good times can feel euphoric.

i cant be thankful enough that, at least, something good happens to me. no doubt about that.

"offically missing you" -tamia

act now

greed lust hatred paralyzing is envy
all negative energy just attracting enemies
i hope for world peace this aint all that'll ever be
sing to the same song if the masses is feelin me
open your mouth yall and harmonize the melody
if we hope for the best, affluence can spread
just show love n progress and we can live in harmony
this is for and to RiP to peace keepers who died
mohad ma ghandi spoke truth, no lie
Lets not forget Martin Luther King who fought for a dream n died
and no room for anti
Bob Marley and Mother T was pro peace n love
the answers right there, its all the above
its our turn now and dedicate ourselves
be without self
to a movement where OUR heroes fought til the death
composed with no fear they smelt the breath of evil
and still, they peacefully stepped
they stayed and kept ground but kept moving ahead
so put the gear in drive or just keep walkin
we need action now and there aint no time for talkin
cuz the worlds in our hands for the next generation
the past was yesterday, the future's to hope for
but today is a gift, thats why we call it the present
act now

the love of my life...

i was two when i first met you. and 19 years later, we're still inseparable. a few minor setbacks but everything is fine.

its 12am and im shooting around with a tweaked ankle.. and im reminded by this beautiful night how i love you. you still give me the same feeling when we're by ourselves, listening to the you hit the ground and falling smoothly through the net. for that moment in time, i feel at peace and nothing matters. while you're in my hands and the courts within my sites, the arguments, problems, grudges, hating, yelling... ALL OF IT, forgotten... My issues, worries, thoughts, parents, hunger, dreams, and even I, gone, for that split second in time i hear "kshhh". its just me, the pavement, you, and the rim, against the world.

then i head back to my room, and here i am again, alone. dealing with this pain called life. but, in the back of my mind, i know that when we get together my love, you will always be here for me to take me away and ease the pain.

ok...

this is getting out of hand. its been only two weeks and1,000 people have died in Gaza. i dont know the politics behind either side but women and children shouldn't die because leaders of their countries are arguing over "something". if anything, the innocent shouldnt be getting hurt and the people arguing should fight.

what frustrates me more is that all i could do is talk about it and i have no control over this situation. theres nothing to do except pray...

i need a change.